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Rabbi Yassir Wa laa Tu’assir ….

I am NOTHING!

Bismillah.

“Oh you who believe, persevere in patience and constancy: vie in such perseverance, strengthen each other and fear Allah that you may prosper.”

Ya Rabb, I am nothing except what you generously give me. 

If I do good deeds … it is not me but You who did it for You are Most Generous. 

If I love anyone, it is not me but You who love them for You are Most Loving. 

If I am compassionate …. it is not me but You for You are Most Compassionate. 

If I forgive others … it is not me but You who forgive for You are Most Forgiveful.

Your lowly servant is in Your hands, I am like the tide, moving in and out, up and down yet ever hopeful for your mercy and love.  Thus do please guide, teach, forgive and love this servant named ‘Nothing’, for You are The Almighty, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahiim.

10 useless matters

Ten Useless Matters
Imam Ibn ul Qayyim al Jawziyyah

Al-Fawa’id
© 2004 Umm Al-Qura

There are ten useless matters:

1.Knowledge that is not acted on

2.The deed that has neither sincerity nor is based on following the righteous examples of others

3.Money that is hoarded, as the owner neither enjoys it during this life nor obtains any reward for it in the Hereafter

4.The heart that is empty of love and longing for Allah, and of seeking closeness to Him

5.A body that does not obey and serve Allah

6.Loving Allah without following His orders or seeking His pleasure

7.Time that is not spent in expiating sins or seizing opportunities to do good

8.A mind that thinks about useless matters

9.Serving those who do not bring you close to Allah, nor benefit you in your life

10.Hoping and fearing whoever is under the authority of Allah and in His hand; while he cannot bring any benefit or harm to himself, nor death, nor life; nor can he resurrect himself.

However the greater of these matters are wasting the heart and wasting time. Wasting the heart is done by preferring this worldly life over the Hereafter, and wasting time is done by having incessant hope. Destruction occurs by following one’s desires and having incessant hope, while all goodness is found in following the right path and preparing oneself to meet Allah.

How strange it is that when a servant of Allah has a [worldly] problem, he seeks help of Allah, but he never asks Allah to cure his heart before it dies of ignorance, neglect, fulfilling one’s desires and being involved in innovations. Indeed, when the heart dies, he will never feel the significance or impact of his sins.

(source: Ramadhan Reminders)

Alhamdulillah….

Just woke up …. early morning went to the polyclinic with my daughter, Wafa.  She has been complaining of spinal pain.  Gosh!!! I simply can’t bear waiting at the polyclinic …. can become sick …. sick from waiting.  Imagine, from 9 am to 1 pm at the poly. 

I was worried if she had to be sent to be hospital … but alhamdulillah, the doctor said to observe for another week first while taking the medicine.  If after one week, the pain is still there, no improvement then to go back and see the doctor, whereby she will have to go for an x-ray and proceed to the specialist.  I hope not.

Once I reached home, the first thing I did was to lie down and sleep because by then my tension headache was in full force

Stress …. stress … stress ….

Too many thing to think about, to care about …..what with the kids, the parents-in-law health, husband who is also not well and oh! so many matters.  Insya’Allah I can cope … but just need to plan and take care of things one at a time.  Truly this month and the next 2 month will be a busy one … .what with the PSLE result coming out soon, the selection of secondary school if my eldest result is good and many more.

A little sacrificing has to be done I think.  I may need to sacrifice certain things to accommodate certain other things … but insya’Allah everything will fall in place.

Right, now its time to get ready and make a move to my nephew’s house.  There’s a family function, today and tomorrow.  Luckily, my 5th nephew who had an accident yesterday and broke his arm had his operation last night.  His condition was good and so was able to be discharged today also. 

Alhamdulillah …. alhamdulillah … alhamdulillah ….

All praises to the Almighty!

 

Coming soon ….

Alhamdulillah … if Allah wills then insya’Allah these few months will be a busy and hopefully fruitful ones for me and my sisters-in-Islam

Thanks to Sister Teeya, we will be having another project for the Rohingya people based in Selayang Haven  soon. Insya’Allah …

Can’t wait for the project to start … getting excited by the minute

Will update more when I have more details on the project.

Khalas!

PLot ???

The last few days, we have been thinking of buying a house in JB …. mulling here and there, calculating here and there and finally decided not to.  Whole family were divided over this matter and I knew husband was just waiting for me to make the final decision. 

It was rather strange that as I sat on the floor with the notes in front of me, kids talking, debating etc over this matter, I was suddenly thinking whether is this what I really want? Another house, another material from this world which later Allah will ask me to account for? Another responsibility which I believe is from “wanting” not from “needing”?

I began to have visions of death. That no matter how big a house I want or have …. ultimately it is at Graveyard Garden, Plot No. ??? and Blk No. ????  that I will finally reside. 

Whooshh!! Can feel me suddenly zapping back to earth with an “ouch!”.

Truly, at that point of time, I began to think that this is a test for me.  A test to see whether I will succumb to the desire of the flesh … for worldly materials or not.

Once I made the final decision not to…. I felt such a release, Alhamdulillah. 

I read this hadith early this morning …. Jazakallahu khairan to Munirfa for this J

It’s another knowledge gained, more reflection and implementation needed.

May it benefit me and benefit those who read it also.  Amin.

“Every man’s heart which inclines to anything but the love of God is afflicted by a disease in proportion to this inclination, unless he loves a thing because it helps him to love God and to practice his religion.” [Al-Imam al-Ghazzali]

Trying ….

I am trying … trying day by day to wean myself off facebooking, rather its more like trying to reduce logging on to facebook more often.  Each time I log in, I make a mental note to only check for any email and any post by Ramadhan Reminders, The Ideal Muslimah and my love ones.  Skim and glance … read those that are worth reading and then log out.

For the games in facebook … phew!! this is the hardest … I truly enjoyed playing those games but then I do not want to end my life with the games

Thus, another mental note …. only play once every 3 days for half an hour ONLY for now until I can totally rid myself of them.

Facebooking will still be a part of my life … but not going to be major part of my time.  No! I don’t want it that way anymore.  Life is getting shorter by the minute.  Every knowledge I gained, every hadith and every wise words I read … somehow I have to make myself learn to implement them, if not its like water flowing down a cucumber skin … smoothly flowing without leaving a trace…(hmm why the sudden mention of cucumber? maybe becos I like them and want to eat them now?… hehehe ) 

(ok back to serious mode …   ) I want the knowledge, the wise words to be flowing, yes, but leave a mark on me, physically and spiritually.  I know I can do it only if Allah decrees it so.

As it was written in a hadith,

“When Allah wishes good for someone, He bestows upon him the understanding of Deen” (Al-Bukhari and Muslim)

and so when Allah wish to bring me closer to Him, He will bestows upon me the guidance, the help I need, the strength to deflect what I don’t need and make the path easier for me to walk towards Him. 

Insya’Allah and may Allah forgive this faqirah … Amin amin Ya Rabb!!!

Khalas!

Spiritual gem …

 

“The keys to the life of the heart lie in reflecting upon the Qur‘aan , being humble before Allah in secret, and leaving sins.”
 - Ibn Qayyim al Jawziyyah rahimahullah