These days, lots of things in my mind. Some good and some not too good. I have been thinking a lot about myself, the need to improve and yet the struggle and trial that I faced while trying to change for the better. The failures of getting rid of some really bad habit. Pretty depressing when I think about them. Yet, yet deep down in my heart, I do not want to give up. Could never give up as long as Allah still lends me “Life and Breath”.
I’m kind of hoping and praying at the same time that Allah too won’t give up on me. That one day….one day soon, I will be able to change all the bad habits that I have and with the strength and iman that Allah give to me, I’ll change for the better and become better muslimah. Insya-Allah.
Besides thinking about myself, I do think about others and among them is the story of my sister…a sister whom I love not just for Allah’s sake but also because she is “Her”, if you know what I mean. This sister of mine, is a wonderful lady, full of faith and spirit, I believe her aim in life is to guide others to move towards Allah s.w.t.
Recently, she made a comment about choosing to work for Allah by teaching and not choose the path of working as a translator whereby she could have earn a 4-digit figure. This comment of hers made me think.
I believe her chosen path is a wonderful one because teaching and especially teaching to guide others towards Allah s.w.t. is a wonderful job. It is a job that give one rewards both on earth and hereafter. Also good teachers are always needed and a must to have around.
Yet, I also think that if she ever change her mind and decided to work as a translator, she could still achieve her aim. She need not take it as a full-time job, she could do it as a part-timer. A job that helps to translate especially if the person do it with the intention to help others and for Allah’s sake will also help one to move towards Allah’s path.
Think of this scenario, if a translator work in a hospital, helping to translate for patients, not only does the person plays an important role in the recovery of the sick person and help making the patient feel at ease but gaining the monetary value from such a job, one can put aside a percentage of the money earned as charity. Thus, a person with such ability gained lots of rewards, from helping others for the sake of Allah, doing charities for the sake of Allah and I believe through first hand experience seeing others suffers in hospital will teach and rewards the person herself spiritually.
Anyway, as I’ve commented, my mind has been working overtime these days. *Sigh* most of all it has been full of thoughts on the need to improve for myself. As a servant of Allah, wife, mother and sister, I have a lot to learn and improve.
May all my du’a be fulfill by Allah soon…. Insya-Allah
Ameen!
Posted by ummabdurrahman on November 22, 2007 at 5:37 pm
As Salaamu Alaikum Sis:
I totally understand what you mean with “deep thoughts” on who you are and where we can be next. It is human nature to contine to strive to improve ourselves and the lives of those around us. Allah is the best planner and He is the all-knower and all-seer of what lies in your heart and mind. It sounds like you are going through some changes and this is a good sign of personal growth both intellectually and spiritually. You can make a change like the story you have written about your sister. Sometimes, those around us can be motivators for what we can pursue. Never underestimate yourself. Remember,as women we play many roles in society and we have so many trials and tests with our families and even within ourselves. Allah will never give us more than what we can handle or will He let us down. He is the best of planners.
Keep the faith sister and I am sure that those deep thoughts of yours which have been working overtime will find its way to the correct decisions through the will of Allah.
Posted by adikbongsu on November 23, 2007 at 4:24 pm
Wa’alaikumussalam UmmAbdurrahman,
Thank you sister. I totally agree that those around us can be the motivators we need to make the change in ourself. Jazakillah for your du’a.
*hugs*
Posted by Farhana on November 24, 2007 at 3:51 am
As-salaamu’alaykum wa Rahmatu Llahi wa Barakatuhu my dearest sister,
Subhan’Allah.. re-read what you’ve written.
“…yet deep down in my heart, I do not want to give up.” – Allah is already answering your dua’s. Just to want to do good (ie: better ourselves), is a blessing from Allah. And all this reflecting is a blessing from Allah.. and insha’Allah with your sincere intention, Allah will open up ways for you that you’d never imagine.
About the wonderful lady you wrote about. Just my thoughts.. but there is nothing better than doing something to for the sake of Allah. So even if it may logically look like going through a different route may help her gain more (in the long run).. it might not be the case. Because it’s what’s in the heart
(heart over mind)
Jazak’Allah for sharing your thoughts my dear sister.
Lots of good advice ummAbdurrahman, masha’Allah.
Wa’alaykum as-salaam
Love Farhana
Posted by adikbongsu on November 24, 2007 at 4:04 am
Salam ‘alaik Farhana,
Masya-Allah…
I am so humbled by your comments sister….jazakallah. As i read your comment, i keep repeating “ameen …ameen..ameen…”
I feel bless to be surrounded by sisters-in-Islam like you, UmmAbdurrahman, Umm Yusuf and many more. People whom i never met yet feel so much closer in spirit.
Alhamdulillah…Thank you Allah for bringing us together