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The last few days, we have been thinking of buying a house in JB …. mulling here and there, calculating here and there and finally decided not to.  Whole family were divided over this matter and I knew husband was just waiting for me to make the final decision. 

It was rather strange that as I sat on the floor with the notes in front of me, kids talking, debating etc over this matter, I was suddenly thinking whether is this what I really want? Another house, another material from this world which later Allah will ask me to account for? Another responsibility which I believe is from “wanting” not from “needing”?

I began to have visions of death. That no matter how big a house I want or have …. ultimately it is at Graveyard Garden, Plot No. ??? and Blk No. ????  that I will finally reside. 

Whooshh!! Can feel me suddenly zapping back to earth with an “ouch!”.

Truly, at that point of time, I began to think that this is a test for me.  A test to see whether I will succumb to the desire of the flesh … for worldly materials or not.

Once I made the final decision not to…. I felt such a release, Alhamdulillah. 

I read this hadith early this morning …. Jazakallahu khairan to Munirfa for this J

It’s another knowledge gained, more reflection and implementation needed.

May it benefit me and benefit those who read it also.  Amin.

“Every man’s heart which inclines to anything but the love of God is afflicted by a disease in proportion to this inclination, unless he loves a thing because it helps him to love God and to practice his religion.” [Al-Imam al-Ghazzali]